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Its Okay Not To Be Okay

ASK FOR HELP. TALK ABOUT IT. LISTEN TO OTHERS. Often as a society we get into a stigma that talking about whats wrong in your life is complaining and we don't want to burden others by expressing something that isn't right within our lives. I think we feel like there are worse things happening within our lives and who are we to complain? Its okay not to be okay. I fight anxiety and depression, this stems from a time back in my freshmen year of high school. Eight years ago my best friend committed suicide, my stepmom passed in a car accident and my grandpa passed away within three weeks of each other. I was heart broken, tired, and hurt. I couldn't get out of bed, I didn't want to hang with friends and sometimes I still feel this very same way. I have been seeing a counselor for eight years, I have seen three different people since I was 15. I have enjoyed the last person I have seen for the past four years, she gets me and gives me really good advice. I am not strugg

Face Your Demons

Facing my demons, I didn't really think I had them until I realized I hadn't been myself in a long time. It started with my first major break up last year, I was struggling with loss of love, self confidence, and doubt. I felt like if it didn't work with the guy I thought I was going to marry than how could it work with someone down the road. I was broken and I didn't want to face the fact that this man was the cause of all my pain. I had to confront him to move on and flourish into the woman I wanted to become. I talked to him over text because he is childish and honestly it sealed the deal for me right at that moment. After I talked to my ex, I contacted two other people that I felt I needed to close doors with to open new ones. I felt free. This really opened my heart up and I cried because I felt so dang good! I felt like I could move on in peace and write off that chapter in my life. I am glad that time in my life happened because I wouldn't have had to face th

Try New Things

Pushing outside of your comfort zone can be a giant step in your self discovery process. This can consist of many things but what I have done in the past was to say yes to crazy ideas by my friends. Over the summer I: Went to a Renaissance Faire Went jet skiing Went dancing Started a blog Coached a softball team Went to Cedar Point What I listed above were things that I felt really uncomfortable when the idea was presented to me but I am so glad I did. I did these activities with some really great friends that made each and every activity so much fun!  What I learned from these activities:  Be scared to do something new is completely normal but if you push yourself past that its worth it.  Doing something new with your friends makes the activity so much easier. You learn to love new things You can learn a lot about yourself by trying new things. I learned I loved a lot more things than I thought I did as well as to open my mind to new things that my frie

Who cares

Listen to yourself, what you believe, and what you think. It doesn't matter what others think of you and if they have something to say then were they really worth it? I think that we get so caught up in what people say that we hold back from doing what we want. If you want to wear something crazy, do it. You want to eat that extra piece of cake, do it. You like reading books instead of going out, do it. Do what makes you feel comfortable not what others want from you. In the end you are who you have, you need to make yourself happy not others. This goes along with my last post, surrounding yourself with friends that are accepting you for who you are is a big step into your own self discovery. Choose you.

Friends

"You are who you surround yourself with." This rings true for many people and has definitely changed my life. I decided to change my group of friends my junior year of high school and I constantly am changing friend groups. These decisions come with the fact that I was happy with the friends I was with. They were mean, nasty, and selfish. I didn't think they were people whom I wanted to be surrounded with. They were always putting people down as well as making me feel bad about everything. I become a lot happier and nicer when I started making friends that were more like my own personality. They made me grow they didn't try to hold me back. This was the most import part of out friendship. THEY HELPED ME GROW AND FLOURISH. They love having people around me that instill something positive or helpful within me and I can do the same in their life. I don't have time for toxic people and those people that were in my life before now were all apart of God's plan b

What Makes You Happy?

Find something you love to do and makes you feel happy. For me it would have to be baking cupcakes, nothing special straight from the box but my secret is organic eggs. I like to bake a ton of cupcakes when I am feeling down, angry and even happy. It makes me feel satisfied when all my friends and I get together to decorate the cupcakes. I dye vanilla frosting into a bunch of different colors and sometimes even dye the cupcake batter just for fun. After the cupcakes are all decorated I will bring them to friends unexpectedly so that I could make someone else feel just as happy as I do about my cupcakes being beautiful. I know that this sounds simple and it just boxed cupcakes but I feel the happiest when I get to spend time with my friends or by myself doing something I enjoy. Finding something that makes you happy could be extremely small or huge but either way the most important part is that the actions make you feel happy and clear headed. I think trying a few different things t

Discovery

I think everyone goes through something that makes them question everything about themselves, just to become better, smarter and tougher. I went through a horrible breakup about a year ago. My significant other at the time was horrible now that I look back at it. He was cheating, lying and verbally abusive. I look back and I really questioned why I stayed as long as I did but I only stayed because of the abuse I was experiencing. When I realized enough was enough I stood up for myself and ended up breaking up with him. I not only felt liberated but happy. I cried a lot but this launched me in a path of self discovery. What I learned first was that I don't think we understand were lost until something so big blows up in our face and their is no way to ignore it, like most want to. I tried to distract the hurt I was feeling by trying new things and hanging with old friends I hadn't seen in years. I went vacationing, made new friends, experienced a renaissance faire, and learned t